A selection from R. D. Laing’s Knots (1970). Here is another:
Mother loves me
because she is good
I am bad, to think she is bad
therefore if I am good
she is good
and loves me
because I am good
to know she is good.
I am bad
to doubt she punishes me for doubting
she loves me by punishing me
for doubting she loves me.
She says
it must be her fault
if I doubt she loves me.
She feels bad because
I don't think she loves me because
she feels bad when I don't think she loves me.
She feels
it is her fault
that I can be so cruel
as to doubt she loves me
when she makes me feel cruel,
to think she tries to make me feel cruel.
Laing was a radical Scottish psychiatrist influenced by existential philosophy and the anti-psychiatry movement of the 1960’s. Not immune himself to mental illness, he suffered from depression and alcoholism.